My first Yoga class.

I finally decided to  do a yoga class my friend who instructs  at  the gym  I go to has been encouraging me  to  come for ages but I really never thought it  would  be for me so I said I will make it  to  a class within the  next year ........... I put  it  off for about 4 months ............ But tonight I decided  threw step  that  I would  stay and  do it  and  get  it  over  and  done  with. But  to  my shock horror I love it. I will be sore in places I never thought I had muscles in certain places lol lol lol ............. I found it to  be so relaxing and calming. Lucky for me I am flexible. I just have to  learn the positions better but that will come  in time.

Peaceful that what yoga is to me.

The one  in the aqua top  that was my attitude towards yoga ................ but not no more.

   
Excerise: PT , Step class & Yoga.

Food: Excellent.

My 3 little Princes

I spend a lovely afternoon and night  with  a great friend and  her 3 little boys who mean the  world  to  me.

They help get me  thru  the  worst  stage of  my  life  when I had really bad depression I was suicidal  and wanted  to  end  it all. My  friend  would  ring  and say hey  Kate  can  you  come  and  help  me with  the  boys but  really the  time  spend  with them actually helped  me see so  much  to  live for. As they were innocent kids just loving  life and loving  me for me. They  help  me  so  much. They will always hold a very special  place  in  my heart.

H , C & R

Food: Ok

Excercise: Combat , Abs & Combat.


Kayaking has been put  off till December but  that  is  cool  with me I can't wait ............ going to be a great day.  What a way to start the summer off.

December now. 

Never giving up

Don't you quit Poem

When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest, if you must, but don't you quit.
Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As every one of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about,
When he might have won had he stuck it out;
Don't give up though the pace seems slow--
You may succeed with another blow.
Often the goal is nearer than,
It seems to a faint and faltering man,
Often the struggler has given up,
When he might have captured the victor's cup,
And he learned too late when the night slipped down,
How close he was to the golden crown.
Success is failure turned inside out--
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems so far,
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit--
It's when things seem worst that you must not quit.
- Author unknown

I really love  this  poem  I read this poem often  when I want  to  give up. With  this journey  I could  have thrown  the towel  in and walked away. I focus  a lot  on  not passing 120kgs  mark in  my  weigh  ins as every time  I hit  the  120's it would  freak  me  out big time as I know  how easy  it  is  for  me  just  to  eat  my  way  back  up  to  the 170kgs as I'm a big time emotional eater.  



Things  aren't prefect  now  now but I'm  dealing  with  them better I'm focusing  on hitting 98kgs and the 75kgs weight loss mark this  is  one  thing I'm not  going  to  fail  at. 


My  mind  is focus  when doing PT even  if it  makes me vomit lol lol lol  I'm trying :) 

This just says it all ........ love it :)

My quotes I love 


 "Go confidently in the direction of your dreams! Live the life you've imagined."


"Life is about laughing & living, in good & bad times. Getting through whatever comes our way & looking back & smiling."


"what lies behind us and what lies before us is nothing compared to the strength that lies inside of us."

"She decided to start living the life she'd imagined" Kobi amada

"The best day of your life is the one on which you decide your life is your own. No apologies or excuses. No one to lean on, rely on, or blame. The gift is yours - it is an amazing journey - and you alone are responsible for the quality of it. This is the day your life really begins"

Never stop dreaming, for "Dreams are like stars...you may never touch them, but if you follow them they will lead you to your destiny" and your purpose in life.

“A birth certificate shows that you were born, A death certificate shows that you died, But photos show that you LIVED.” unknown.


My ultimate aim is to have a flat tummy ( with a little  help from a lower body lift ) great boobs ( with a little help as well)  and arms that  don't flap lol lol lol. The surgeon telling me I have a 6 pack abs for sure ha ha ha that I will be asking for a picture of :) cause I know  I have one. But most  of all looking at  myself  in the mirror saying you achieve what you set  out  to do and I'm very proud of myself.

Well I hope this  has inspired someone  who reads this cause I now  people do :) Leave a comment if  you want be nice  to now  who  does  read it.  

Have a lovely day or night all.  


Food: Excellent (fresh food choices all day ) 


Excerise: Body Attack

Week 5 weigh in

Another 2.1kgs gone. I'm back I know  if  I slip up  I just get back up  and  back  on track I am only  human after all. :)

I'm feeling really good about life I'm loving  that  I'm loosing weight again I'm planning new things.Looking forward  to all the  family big events  next  year. Just a couple  things  would  complete my  life  right  now  but  that  will  come  in  time :)

Food : Excellent :)

Excerise: PT ....... Zumba & Attack

Sunday

Had  a lovely  day even thou the weather sucked

Had dinner with  one  of  my  closest friends and her family  tonight  it  was  so lovely been a while  since  we  all sat  down  and chatted away.  I can't believe  my god daughter 16 we were talking about her sweet 16 if all her plans come  off it's going to  be  one  great  fun night and there will be lots  of  laughs had.

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Now you can se why  there  be  lots  of  laughs.

Excerise: 10kms bike in just over 23 minutes.& 2kms Rower (4 x500m intervals with 1 minute rest)

Food: Excellent till the scones with jam & cream.

Saturday

Great day and night :)

Food : Excellent

Excerise: Combat & Zumba  

Kayaking

Kayaking on Sydney harbour  how  cool  would  that  be. I  have  a  friend  who  wants  to  do  it  on the 15th October 2011 I so would  love  to  do  it  as well. I can see it now the  kayak capsizing non stop laughter but  a lot  of serious moments  as well.

Let's hope  I get to  do it :)

Friday

I'm feeling my shoulders  and abs today that's from PT  on Thursday so  it  must  be hitting the right spots oh  it  could  have been step as well.

Today  is  such a  lovely  day you couldn't  help  but  have  a smile  on  your  face boy who wouldn't love spring :)  

Excerise: I had a rest day I sure  do deserve it

Food: Great but  I did have desert while I was  out  with mum.  

Feeling it .....................

Feeling it from PT ................. My work out today was great even thou there was running on the treadmill 400m and burpees but this weight lifting stuff is fun.

Best thing I ever did for myself  was this 12 week challenge and blogging.

My sister has asked me to  go  to  Bali  next year in November must say pretty excited will be a lot of fun.

Hopefully I will have  had my lower body lift , Boob job & arms all done. It  will be great.

It's exciting  looking forward Bali now added to my vision board :)

Food : Excellent

Excerise: PT & Body Step ............ I'm feeling it :) great work outs.  .

Wednesday

Not  a very  interesting blog  today I'm totally bored.  Which is  leading  me  to  pick  at  food I  don't  want  to be  eating.

Food: Not the greatest

Excerise: Combat Ab blast & combat. .

Family

Wow watching Rafters it  sure  has  made  you  think.

My family  a  mix bunch and  I love  it  and  I wouldn't have it any other  way. We are  spread over  2 states but are  always  there for each other  if we need them.

But  it got  me thinking  about my dads family  who  I don't  know and  who actually live  in Sydney I go thru stages of wanting to meet  them again as  they were  the only  family  I  knew  up  until  I was 5 but  I  don't remember them at all. I meet one Aunty when I was in year 6 and  seen them every so often  over  a year  or 2 period. Then at  my  dads funeral  I meet another Aunty but haven't seen neither since.

At Easter time I drove past my  Aunty house but never had the courage  to  knock  on  the door. I really  think I  need to  at  visit again just  to  see if I really need to  get  to  know  my  other side  of  my  family..

I feel incomplete ......................... Does  that make sense?

Hey all!
I wanted to do something for the movie quote challenge before it ended.
"Ohana" means "family." "Family" means "no one gets left behind."
An animated Classic! 

 

 

I love that saying  from lilo & Stitch so I had  to  add it  my  blog.

With  that  saying I always feel  in  my  dads family  I got  left behind  but  in  my  mums family I never did.

May be  one  day  I may  have a family of  my  own but I'm not sure.

 I must also say  that  I have some great friends who I class as my family they know who  they are and I love  them to bits :)

But  I am getting excited  about my birthday next year which I normally hate  celebrating my birthday so that  is  a great thing. Will  explain  more later  on :)  it's all under wraps :)

Food : Good

Excerise: Body Attack.   






 

Week 4 weigh in

I lost 2kgs this week I now weigh 116.45kgs. So happy I finally believe that  I am  in the right frame  of mind for this challenge and  I will achieve my  goal of 98kgs ( Double digits ) Don't worry as  soon as that double digit flashes up  on  the scales I will be taking  a photo and  I will  share  it  with  you.

I now  have  to over  come  my  fear  of  running  on  the treadmill  it  just freaks  me  out but  I now  I need to  do it. Like  my  trainer  said  to  me  today  she  not giving  me  anything  she  thinks  I'm not capable  of completing. I have  to stay positive and focus on  what I'm trying  to  achieve  each session.

Start believing  in me.

Happy birthday Nan I  love  and  miss  you  so  much. I miss our  little  outings  and drives where  we  would  just  chat about  what  was happening in  our  world  at  the  time.  I miss you being  there  when  we  celebrate  special occasions. But  I now  your spirit  is around us always :) I loved it when  you  sit  on  the  lounge  and  have  a  beer  with  mum. That  was  one  beer  you always enjoyed. RIP Nan I really truly  do miss  & love you.

Food : Good

Excerise: PT , Zumba & Body Attack.    

   

Sunday

Woke up  with  a sore neck  not  fun  at all :(  A quiet  day but that is lovely  after a big night out :)

Food : Great today :)

Excerise: 2kms on the rower (500m 4x with 1 minute rest) & 10kms bike.  

Saturday

Boring headings I know  they  will  get  better  in  time I promise :)

Today started out great until  I  went  to  a  Hen's night  out where  the nibbles  were  just  yummy  but  I  did stay in control.

I  had  a  great  night  out  in  the  city  cruising  around  the  harbour on  my  friend hens  night.  Must  say  the  strippers  on  the  boat  were  little the  waiters  were  better  looking. I think next year I'm going to organise a girls weekend in at darling harbour that  place  comes alive at  night  I love  it.

Food : Was ok.

Excerise: Combat ( sore arms and abs today on Sunday) & Zumba.

   

Friday

What a great day ............... the weather is stunning ............ just loving life :)

Got some lovely comments about my changing figure it's shrinking :) 

I haven't got  much else  to  say been quiet  of  late but  that's ok

Food : Today has been excellent :) I'm proud of myself.  Many more days like this to come :)

Excerise: 2kms rower ( 500m (4) with 1 minute rest )  10kms bike done  in 29 minutes  1 kms treadmill. .

Thursday

I really hate kettle bells but they shaw do  give  you a great work out. I even manage to puk not so good lol lol lol.

I have  been  doing  a lot  of  thinking  over  the  past  few  days.  I now deep  down  I really  want  this  I now  I'm  the  only  one  who  can  make  it happen. So I'm going  to  make  it happen double digits here I come :)

Food - Good I gave  into  temptation :(

Excerise: PT Kettle bells  

Wednesday

It  breaks  my  heart just  to  see  what  I see and  where  it  could  end  up. Sorry  I  can't  go  into  more  but  I  know  what  I'm blogging about.

Food been good :)

Excerise: Combat & Ab blast ............... Combat at night.  

Tuesday

Not  a  lot  to  write about.

Food: Good

Excerise: Body Attack class.  

week 3 weigh in

Monday 12th September 2011 I  put  on 250grams.  I know  now  where  I  went  wrong  and  why.  I'm trying  hard  for  this week to  get  back  on  target  and  hit  the  double digits

Only  a short  entry  today.  .

Food : ok

Excerise : PT  Body Attack & Zumba

Sunday

I'm going  to  do  a  post  which  no one  can  view  maybe  in  time  I  will  show  it  as  it's a very  personal  one  to  me.  I'm  not  sure  I want  to  share it  with  everyone

Excerise :  30 seconds  rowing 30 second rest  I did it  20 times :) & 10kms on the bike :)  I'm enjoying  just  doing  my  own  thing. 

Food : Has  been good today :)  


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Saturday

I didn't  blog on  the  day cause I wanted to  write  stuff that  I didn't  want people  to  know  so I decided  againist blogging about it.

Yesterday was a crap day.

Food : Breakfast & Lunch great the rest shithouse

Excerise: Combat & Zumba  

Needing some Inspiration ................

Today I'm really  needing  some inspiration so I have found  it being  asked  to  be in the wedding  party  of  one  of  my  cousins I'm going  to plaster a picture of  the  dress  on my fridge and I will be wearing a size 12 Hopefully  I would  of had  some surgery  as well to get  rid  of  the excess skin and maybe  even  the girls  perky as well lmao sorry I couldn't help myself.

My favourite one

Now  the decision pink or purple  hell I don't wear  either  colour lol lol lol.But  I'm leaning towards Purple :)

Here  is a Thomas Sabo pendant I like

Isn't it lovely :)  and you  can get matching earrings as well.  

I thought  I would show you what accessories I liked as well. There  earrings  that match.   I have  decided to  go  with the purple dress :) Stay  tune 1 year  from  now  with that dress  on me :) in a size  12. 

Today I spoke  with a person close  to  me who  has  had weight loss surgery there voice was  like  mine when  nothing  could  take  me  down it was  really  good  I really needed to  that person  a huge  thank you and I can't wait  to  see  you and  walk  the  gateway with  you :)  Love  you.  I  ended up going  to  the  gym a great session that was.

Food has  been really  good.

Excerise: 2kms on the rower 500m (4) with  one minute rest.  10kms on the bike & walked 1kms on the treadmill.

Tonight  I caught  up  with  2 great  friends been a while but  just  seem liked  yesterday.

I really  want  to  go  to Brisbane for a holiday.  Hopefully soon :)

Don't  you love my tracker I added  to my blog.

Since  it  is 230am I'm  off to bed night everyone 

Week 2 Day 4

Well not  a  lot  to be  said I  need to  go  to  a health farm where all  the  food  is healthy  they  raid  your  bags  of  bad stuff and  you get  to  excerise .................... Who wants  to come?????

I just want  that  strong determine mind  I had.  I had a goal  and  nothing  could  get  in  my  way even temptation.

I have  so much to  look forward  to  next  year where  I now  I want  to looking  my best  not thinking  that  I should be  there.  Cause  this  time  last  year  I had  it  in  my  head  I  would  be having the surgery I needed to  finish  the  whole journey  off. It  frustrates me  so much.

But I'm not giving in  like  my Aunty  has told  me  that  my stubborness will  see me  make  my  dreams  come true.

I feel  like  I have  let  people  down mainly  the  ones  who  have  work  with on  my journey.

I'm not  having the greatest  of  days there a few  things  I need  to  sort  out.

Food : Main meals  great  just  the horrible picking.

Excerise : Step & Pt I dead lifted 90kgs :) 








 

Not a great Day

I promised  myself  I would  blog every day  over  the  next 12 weeks so  I'm blogging  today.

Today  food wise  has  been a bad for  picking which  at  the  moment  is  my  current  down fall.

Food  : Not  the greatest.

Excerise :  Combat (2)  & Abs ................... Boy am I  feeling  it.

Tomorrow a new day and it's  going to  be  fresh foods all day :)

 

To stay or go ????

I'm stuck so I thought I would  write  here to see if  it  is  any clearer for me ............ lmao.

I'm wanting  to  make a move to Brisbane so I can  attend Uni but  I can do it here  in Sydney  which  I may  end  up  doing.

I have not  a lot holding me in Sydney and  feel like  a move to Brisbane  to be closer to family  in Brisbane. But  I don't  want  to be  running  away from things  here.

I've had so many changes this past year This is  one  thing  that  hasn't changed. What's here  to  keep  me  in Sydney?  

Maybe I just flip a coin and there  I have my answer Heads Sydney  Tails Brisbane ............. What  did I flip?

Food today  has  been Good.

Excerise Zumba & Abs ............. I never really wanted  to  do  any today but so glad I did :)  

I think I finally got it

Your asking what have  I finally  got ?????

Being 118kgs  I have  been quiet comfortable  cause I have already  lost 55.5kgs I feel great ......... But in reality I still have a lot  of  weight  to  go  to  be in my healthy weight range  cause when  I look up 118kgs  I'm still obese and have a BMI  of 41 and 71 kgs is the top  of  my healthy range so  that  still telling me  I need  to  loose 47kgs. Yes  that  a huge  number  still  to go. But  I promise  myself and to  my niece Boo who came with me when I started  and signed up for this  journey in October 2008 I would  complete it and  totally finish  it.

Not to give  up  on  myself.

I must  say  over the  past 7 months  I had lost  focus on  my  promise stayed where it  is  comfortable. So now  is  the  time  to  get  back out  there  and  and  get  out  of the  comfort  zone  I have  been loving. Let  the transformation  begin  again. I always remember  what  my first  trainer told me about going  backwards over the hill  So it's time  to move forward.Loved that talk on the treadmill :) 

I promise from this day forward to write  in my  food dairy daily do some form of excerise ( Natty I be  out to  borrow Peppa sometimes. ) &  to  blog here  and  to  plan  my  menu. ( Yes Gemma these  are  what  you  have  taught  me)  & To start  liking  me  again.

What  got  me onto  this  was  watching  the finalist  of The new me competition and it  really  sunk  in when  I watched Kerrieanne Bacci story  Here  is  the  link  if  you also  want  to  watch.http://www.fitnessfirst.com.au/nyaa  Her transformation  has really  inspired me :)  I  hope  the  link  works.

It's nice to  have a reality shock every so often.

I hope  it all make sense.  









 




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Week 1 weigh in

I lost 3kgs I was really happy  with  that as I know  I stuffed  up  towards  the end of  the week so could  you imagine  what  it  could  of been  if  I was really good the  whole week

My goal  for this week is to eat  as best as I can and  to get the 2kgs loss which  is  my goal anything  else  is a bonus.  I will make the 98kgs and  I will be doing   the bridge climb at the  end of November I can't wait. Taking each week  week by week.

Excerise  PT was a killer but  I did enjoy  it :) Zumba & Body Attack.

Food been good :)

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Happy fathers Day

Wow I haven't celebrated fathers day in  such  a long  time.

In my  eyes my  mum  has  taken  on  the  role  of  both  parents  most  of  my  life and boy  she  has  done  a wonderful job. I wasn't  the easiest child teenager or  young adult to  be  around. Mum not  only  raised  her  natural  kids but  also fostered children  as well and always treat  them  with love care  & kindness just  like  she  would  her  own. But  in  her  eye  they  are  her  own  kids. There is no mention  of  being  fostered in  our  family. We are all one family. Mum studied  late  in life to  give herself  a career if  I  turn out  to  be  half  the woman my  mum is I will be fine :) .................. Thank  you  mum for being  you I love  you with  all my  heart  and  so  does  the rest of  the family. You are a great role model :)

My dad .......... wow what  can  I say it's  hard but I think I will  just  say  it .......... I don't  admire the  way   you  were with  us  and  mum the  memories  I have  to  live  with and  never  in my  life  do  I want  to  marry someone  like  my father. ( You  that  saying ? )  Drink  was  your  first love ............ But  I now  deep down you  loved  us ............. You  just  couldn't  show  us. In saying  all this  I love you and  you are  my father. I now that  you are finally  at peace So dad  RIP and  have  some wonderful  moments with Mike who  you  truly  loved and  broke  your  heart  when  he  went  to  heaven  so young.

I did have  a great childhood I grew  up  in a wonderful street and  have some of  my  great friends  dads  as  role models  who  showed how  a real  father treats  there  kids Allen (RIP) Mr T & Jorge you all have shown me what a dad  should  be.  I love  you  all for that :)

My  friend Trudy Her dad  Allan was the greatest he always had  time  for  a chat or how  we  could  con  him so  we  could  get  our way. Allan I love  you and truly  every day miss  you may  you RIP.

I hope  all  this  has  made  sense lol lol lol.

My  house sitting  finished  today so I'm back  home love  doing it  and  can't wait  till  I do it again. I really  enjoyed  walking  peppa for  about 45 minutes once  or twice  a day. I now  she always  there  if  I want  to  walk  her.

Today  Food was good I slipped up so hopefully  I will  see a slight  lost  on the scales tomorrow weigh in.

Excerise I  went to body Attack & walked Peppa for 45 minutes.

   

Saturday

Not a lot  to say food been good I have slipped up .................... Excerise Combat  and Zumba love it :) Peppa a 45 minute walk ( I really want a dog to walk :) )................ Wow been thinking  what  my Aunty commented on today  about  me being stubborn and  thru  being  stubborn  I will get there. Being stubborn  good  in a way  but rotten lol lol lol.

Walking the the dog or Treadmill.

I had  the  day  off  the gym as I'm at a friends house sitting while  they  are away.  Lucky  for me  there Peppa  who  loves  her daily  walks and  I give  her 2 when I house sit. Both were around 45 minutes each. I much prefer walking  a dog than hopping  on  a treadmill as I really don't  like it walking ok but running I hate.

How can  you learn  to  love  to run treadmill or no treadmill?

Food been ok ...................... Excerise 2 45 minutes dog walks.

PT

Personal Training

I have always done personal training it  is something  I enjoy even thou all my trainers  may  think otherwise cause I complain a lot  about  things  I hate doing hence running on the treadmill. But I must admit I do  what  they want me to do. Even if I don't believe I can do it. Believing in myself is something I have to learn to do.

I can  feel  the difference  in  my fitness just  got  to  start believing in myself a lot more.

Food was not the greatest. I have to  stay  on  track I really do want to  be double digits but  something stopping me.

Excerise ............. PT